Wednesday, January 6, 2010 11:42 PM
light up
It's not always easy.
Often I find myself struggling. To overcome all the negativity that seem to reach out and get to me so effortlessly. It's difficult to make that constant effort to ignore the pinch, the sting and just smile. Smile till I feel it spreading slowly to my eyes, to my heart.
I feel like what I have now is still so fragile. And yet it is supposed to protect me from the rain of stones and rocks that come beating down on it every single day. I worry that my delicate bubble of strength might spring a leak and gradually deflate around me. But so far it hasn't failed me. It took tough shots and while some might have made a dent, it always pushed right back up.
It takes more than a little faith and hope and patience. Sometimes I stumble upon something that quite simply takes my breath away. Like when you miss a step and in the split second that follows, the breath that never quite comes. It just reaffirms my faith in the world and its people and its everything, and that makes me believe that everything will be alright.
So i'm gonna smile till I feel it, and know that tomorrow is another day for me to heal.