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Loving Absurdity
Because.
This is my quest to be the optimist I was a decade ago.
A better, more positive everything.
To always look forward with hope and determination and irrepressible delight.
To look back only to smile at fond memories.
Surround myself with inspiring things, great people and happifying thoughts.
Because I deserve it. And so do you.
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Thursday, August 26, 2010 5:43 AM
abandoned
So it seems I have left this blog to its demise. Hahaha. I knew it would happen one day.I started this blog for a reason, and I stopped because I felt I have achieved what I needed through this. Strength and the temporary uplifting happiness from the dark valleys I used to stumble into too often that finally transformed into hope, and I was able to carry on again.
But today, I suddenly realized I have settled. No darkness, just fogginess. Back to drifting through hours and days and weeks. With goals, but aimlessly. Does that make sense?
I look at my room, the one I vowed to revamp. At the clothes carelessly draped everywhere possible and random slips of paper, magazines and books piled precariously high to one side of the table, at the bags haphazardly thrown on top of shelves and the increasing number of plastic and paper bags stuffed with knick-knacks engulfing more floor space everyday. And it mocks at me. I look at it and I am reminded of all the things I didn't do. Of the drive that seeped away without me noticing. But I notice it now and it feels empty.
So I'm gonna get it back. I just need a plan. And no more excuses.
Here's what I'm gonna do tomorrow:
1. Clean the Hammies' Cage
2. Reinstate clothes to proper places (e.g. the closet, drawer etc)
3. Clear stuff on table
4. Call up Singtel to kick up a fuss
5. Post on communities
6. Call studio for booking
and lastly
7. Know that everything will be fine
Not terribly exciting but it's a start. I will be motivated. And I will make time to feel motivated.
I think mainly I have a few concerns
- Lacepipe (layouts and how to make it better. I'm obsessed.)
- part time job (Lver at ION?)
Yep, actually that's it. To make some money aka get a job (to sustain myself and to ease my mum's worries) and to get my shop to really take off. Just need to plan. And make the most of my day. And to be myself.
