dream and be happy. YAYNESS.
Loving Absurdity
Because.
This is my quest to be the optimist I was a decade ago.
A better, more positive everything.
To always look forward with hope and determination and irrepressible delight.
To look back only to smile at fond memories.
Surround myself with inspiring things, great people and happifying thoughts.
Because I deserve it. And so do you.
Set my soul on fire
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Monday, March 29, 2010 2:23 PM
get out of your comfort zone
Anyone else thinks that YanYan should have more of the dip?
It's never enough! I have to scrimp on each biscuit stick and it makes me sad ): Then I have to scrap the sides of the container with the last stick. Quite pathetic.
Okay, so anyway I kinda got a day off today. Well not really, there are still tons of things to do but I'm at home and I have the WHOOOOLE DAY to do it so I'm taking my time.
Recently I have been thinking about my plans after graduation. Then I get really stressed out and stop thinking about it. It's just that everything has been so unpredictable and everyone has expectations for everyone else: get a job make a humble steady salary, or get a masters in some financial stuff and get a job with a good steady pay.
Don't deviate, no time to think, forget about experimenting, do the proper thing first. And I get it. I really do. I understand why my mum is worried or why friends give the advice that they do. I know I should immediately look for a course to study but I don't want to make the same mistake again of not being passionate about what I'm doing. I just want to take some time, is that so bad?
I wanna be happy (:
Friday, March 5, 2010 3:50 AM
fly
It would be nice. To be in the sky just for a little while. Bet the air's lovely.
12:00 AM
forever
Okay, so i haven't blogged in half a month.In fact, I haven't done many things that I wanted to do. Like take long walks wrapped up in my trusty jacket. Or sit at the café and people watch. Or do a collage of dreamy things. Or get beautiful lights. Or find my eyebrows again.
I'm just so caught up with school now. And blindly going through the motions with the shop.
I'm kinda sad that we had to rush the shoot and not have time to prep with L first. It's all like GO GO GO! And we just keep missing out the important parts.
Like getting the right colour
Like making sure the belt was aligned
Like checking that the bow at the back was tied.
At the end of the day, after we have exhausted ourselves, I look at the end product and think, was this really what I had in mind? Is it really too late to change? Do we really not have the luxury of getting it right?
It's like everything is on auto and when it isnt, it is shut down. And I just keep dreading everything. And when I start to think of the stuff that worries me, the mother of all headaches seizes my scalp and makes it impossible to think.
I just want to breathe again. And have a clear head and a sound mind and a still heart that knows exactly what it wants and where it is heading.
What do I want? I keep hearing myself tell ko about wanting something organic. Something about the shop bugs me. The stark white background. The too bright lights. The thin borders. Something.
I need textures, colours, natural light, angles, perspectives, ease, effortlessness. How can I work that in? Maybe i should start with the background. Something soft, textured, a soothing colour. Striped?
And so many many others. I just keep getting worried about sunk costs, and more work, and trying to fit solutions in a small space of time. I lose track. Lose track of what I wanted, my vision, my goal. It is just so difficult to place a finger on feelings, and emotions and how they translate into visuals.
Everything will be alright. I can believe that. I also believe in cupcakes.
LOVELY.